I have an obsessive personality. Once I have something deeply entrenched in my heart and mind, I am not one to let go of it. It's a challenge to press on, to be the ocean waves that wear down the rocks which are my obstacles.
And every journalist I know has this same personality. There is this need for information, to have a hand on the pulse of life and to make something tangible. It's why we do this crazy job during this wacky time. It's because we're obsessed. We wear it like a badge on our chests, marking us forever as something a little different.
If you think journalism is a 9 to 5 job, you're dead wrong. If you think it's that sexy piece of investigative journalism you saw on the stand one day, you're dead wrong. If you thought it was a bunch of flim flam and you called it "fake" you're still dead wrong. No, we're obsessive and in the mud and dirt of life every hour of the day.
What we do is blood and guts. It's the silence of grief and the roar of joy. It's knowing you want that feeling of having told a story. Every story, every person, every soul matters. It's reading the words on the page and seeing the ghost of a girl's sister rise up before your eyes to speak to you. And that kind of power is a miracle.
Why wouldn't we be obsessed if we have that ability?
But even with all this we must remember something more important than that: humility. Our bylines don't matter. Fact, and not the alternative kind either, people do not check out the byline. They look at the picture, wathc the video and then maybe they read the story. So it's a darn good thing we are not doing this for money or for fame.
We do this because we believe.
Now, I personally am a practicing Catholic, as anyone in my newsroom at the Daily Student could tell you. So as a Catholic, I believe in God, and saints and exorcisms and also something which I share with every other good journalist out there.
We're seeking truth, we believe in it and cling to it like a mother's apron. We thirst and pant for it like a man dying of thirst. Truth is what we want. Why else would we do this? It's not for fame and fortune and everything that goes with it.
We want the truth. For ourselves and for everyone.